This same smile, this same girl, this loving, caring selfless non-emotional individual (COWBOYS HAT) CRIED continuously from 10:00pm-10:45pm yesterday. The tears just wouldn’t stop. I finally realized that I am completely BROKEN😔. I am emotionally incapable of being in a stable romantic relationship. I now know why I dont let people get close to me, because I only know how to hurt them. I am controlling, I am judgmental, AND I frown upon anything that is not of my liking. Its my way or the high-way to the 100th power. I AM SORRY TO ANYONE WHO HAS EVER HAD TO DEAL WITH THAT SHONTICE. I am especially sorry to the love of my life @kayyyylowlow. Hi my name is Shontice and I suffer from Borderline Personality Disorder. This is a product of my environment as a child. I DONT KNOW HOW TO LOVE. My narcissistic ways are a direct result of my inability to deal with emotional attachments. BUT TODAY I DECLARE VICTORY OVER UNBECOMING WHO I AM NOT, for those are the qualities I inherited. I REFUSE TO LET MY NEPHEWS GROW UP WITH AN AUNT LIKE THAT. 💪🏽💪🏽💪🏽💪🏽💪🏽💪🏽#BREAKTHECYLCE #nowifeelbetter #confessionsofablackwoman #somebodyneededtohearthis#imsorryifihurtyou#itwillgetbetter#icannowchange#borderlinepersonalitydisorder #mentalhealthawareness #mentahealthmatters